"Reinvention". Somebody used this word yesterday while giving me advice about my life and its current state. I hadn't thought about things in this way but what an interesting word. "Upheaval", "Craziness", "Bullsh*t", Frightening". These are all the words that come to my mind when I think about all that is happening but I am kinda digging this new word!
Reinvention. Hmmmm. Could be 'cool', 'fun', 'exciting'! You see, while I am not exactly where I thought I would be at this point in my life, a separated, single mom, I think I need to change my thinking. Instead of dwelling on all the negative and the obstacles maybe I should try to see the silver lining? After all, I am not the first or last to be going through these changes and certainly many women before me have not only survived but thrived after their husbands have left. Right? RIGHT?!?
I love the thought of reinventing my self. Actually, maybe not so much a reinvention as just finding myself again. Cliche, I know, but true. We so often become a version of ourselves that, over time, becomes someone with whom we really aren't that familiar. Especially when we fall in love and get married at a very young age. I mean, I wasn't really even fully developed into my true self yet, was I? And then, before I knew it, I was responsible for another person and then two kids!
I get the whole mid-life crisis thing now. I don't know if that is what this is, but I get it! You go along living a life that is 'expected' of you. College, job, marriage, kids. Then one day something happens, by your own doing or your spouses, and things CHANGE. After the fog lifts and you begin to see things clearly, you realize that maybe you wanted to do thing differently any way. Maybe the predestined 'social norm' path wasn't for you. Maybe the choices made by others that so dramatically affected your life could affect your life in a positive way....REINVENTION!
